I'm just venting.. I'll be back to my silly self soon..
Seems to me there's like a .05% chance of it actually happening. Ever since I was a little kid, I wanted to be a business woman. I have no artistic talent, I'm not attractive, and I can't do super genius things. What I am good at involves goal setting, cost cutting, financial projections, and making businesses better when I leave them than when I first arrived. I'm enthusiastic over every penny saved. Over every single inefficiency eliminated with minimal risk. Over every single improved statistic. Yet, I am still stuck in idle. Getting props for being helpful while others gobble up my creativity...
When I ask my son what he wants to be when he grows up, he says he wants to go to space (Star Wars influence) or be a ninja. I tell him, "you can do it!" Even with the knowledge that only the smallest percentage of geniuses can ever make it into space. At least in the past 40 years. I don't ever tell him that with the budget deficit the US is running, they will be hard pressed to have any space program at all. He needs his dreams. Something that propels him to do well in school, to make good choices, and to remember that he has a goal he's working for.
Now that I am all grown up and allowing my son to dream big, I am starting to wonder if dreams are a BS move to get kids to not do drugs and stuff. Really. I feel like Neil Patrick Harris in Glee when he tells the Glee kids they will never achieve their dreams. The problem is, I don't have Mr. Shu to sing "Dream on" with me then give me his part in a community play. Not to mention, I cannot sing or act. Also, NPH makes even being a bitter loser seem so much more awesome. On me, it's another fat person who's cranky... And who hasn't SEEN THAT before?
Waiting to see the wisdom in all this...
Wine, anyone?
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